a break

I think I need to take a break for a bit. The only things I want to write about are big things I’m not done processing and parts of me I’m not ready to show the world quite yet. I’m not trying to be dramatic. But I feel things really fucking deeply and my brain…

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routine

Getting stuff done can be hard. Especially boring or intimidating grown up crap. For me, I find it hard because I often struggle with remembering what all should be done and with prioritizing tasks. This is especially true whenever my brain is wonky. Having a simple daily and weekly routine which incorporates important chores as well…

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CHOOSING TO BE THE VICTIM

Let me start off with getting a few things out of the way: I’m obviously not talking about situations of violence, abuse, oppression, bullying, or anything of that nature when I use the term victim. I’ve had a few conversations with people in the last month or so which touched on this topic. To those…

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brain drain

This year, I’ve learned the importance of draining my brain. It was sobering the day earlier this year when I realized almost 100% of my day involved inputting things into my mind and next to none was dedicated to processing any of it out. In light of that realization, it was no wonder I felt…

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not alone

You’re not alone. (I mean, probably.) When something triggers emotions that I find extra hard to cope with when they’re potent, like shame, helplessness, or feeling small or when depression symptoms start to show, my mean–y’all she is vicious!–inner self comes out and lets me know without hesitation, “You’re alone. When things get dark, you’re…

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going with the flow

I’m learning to go with the flow, the flow of my energy, that is. I used to set the same productivity (and even social) expectations without taking into account the natural flow of my physical and mental energy. And then I would fail. I would fail because I would often set my expectations in times…

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tangled

I wrote almost 2 months ago in a post called sad vaguely about entering “a season of existential/religious/spiritual searching,” and that when I was ready to I would continue those thoughts. I’m kind of ready, but only ready enough to expand just a tiny bit further–but not much, so don’t get your hopes up for…

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