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CHOOSING TO BE THE VICTIM

Let me start off with getting a few things out of the way: I’m obviously not talking about situations of violence, abuse, oppression, bullying, or anything of that nature when I use the term victim. I’ve had a few conversations with people in the last month or so which touched on this topic. To those…

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brain drain

This year, I’ve learned the importance of draining my brain. It was sobering the day earlier this year when I realized almost 100% of my day involved inputting things into my mind and next to none was dedicated to processing any of it out. In light of that realization, it was no wonder I felt…

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not alone

You’re not alone. (I mean, probably.) When something triggers emotions that I find extra hard to cope with when they’re potent, like shame, helplessness, or feeling small or when depression symptoms start to show, my mean–y’all she is vicious!–inner self comes out and lets me know without hesitation, “You’re alone. When things get dark, you’re…

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getting there pt 3

The last time I wrote one of these was in 2017, but based on the last paragraph of part two the story seems to have left off somewhere a few years prior to that. I know I should read the first two parts (you’re certainly more than welcome to read them but I don’t think…

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going with the flow

I’m learning to go with the flow, the flow of my energy, that is. I used to set the same productivity (and social too) expectations without taking into account the natural flow of my physical and mental energy. And then I would fail. I would fail because I would often set my expectations in times…

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tangled

I wrote almost 2 months ago in a post called sad vaguely about entering “a season of existential/religious/spiritual searching,” and that when I was ready to I would continue those thoughts. I’m kind of ready, but only ready enough to expand just a tiny bit further–but not much, so don’t get your hopes up for…

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wicks and whispers

We laid down our answers With a restlessness in our limbs And a numbness in our hearts Surreal encounters half-forgotten Running our fingers over pretty scars Memories of Love etched in the skin Of our souls   We laid down our answers The answers we had demanded in the past Meticulously crafted and quickly bought–…

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i have adhd

Hi, my name is Alissa and I have ADHD. Before I get too far in, I want to clarify who this post is for and who it is not for. This post is for anyone out there who might be able to relate, who might be on or about to start the journey to understanding…

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confession

Shout, shout at the Moon Shout all you want to She won’t grace you with a whisper She doesn’t wander, she isn’t like you Though there are nights I look up at the sky And I witness a sort of reply In her ancient, glassy eyes They suggest a bigger, brighter, warmer light Well, that…

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