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tangled

I wrote almost 2 months ago in a post called sad vaguely about entering “a season of existential/religious/spiritual searching,” and that when I was ready to I would continue those thoughts. I’m kind of ready, but only ready enough to expand just a tiny bit further–but not much, so don’t get your hopes up for…

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wicks and whispers

We laid down our answers With a restlessness in our limbs And a numbness in our hearts Surreal encounters half-forgotten Running our fingers over pretty scars Memories of Love etched in the skin Of our souls   We laid down our answers The answers we had demanded in the past Meticulously crafted and quickly bought–…

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i have adhd

Hi, my name is Alissa and I have ADHD. Before I get too far in, I want to clarify who this post is for and who it is not for. This post is for anyone out there who might be able to relate, who might be on or about to start the journey to understanding…

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confession

Shout, shout at the Moon Shout all you want to She won’t grace you with a whisper She doesn’t wander, she isn’t like you Though there are nights I look up at the sky And I witness a sort of reply In her ancient, glassy eyes They suggest a bigger, brighter, warmer light Well, that…

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sad

I’m not sure I’m feeling a little sadness or am experiencing the first signs of a depressive wonky period of life (mostly my wonky brain is anxious or disorganized). I’ve had two major depression episodes in my life, one in high school and one in college, each starting about 4 years apart. I’m a year…

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relationships & wonky brains

My husband, Evan, and I recently celebrated our two year anniversary. And being the INFP that I am, I’ve been reflecting on things I’ve learned through our relationship. Things about myself and about helping relationships function better. A big thing that had a bit of learning curve for us was navigating my mental health, my…

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would you

I’ve never known A faith without holes At least ones I can’t account for Honestly or easily I used to be scared to admit it Afraid it’d mean I’d have to quit it But the truth is I’ve also never known I’ve never known A love that could compete with yours Never felt a freedom…

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a pep talk

I wrote this last night to myself when I had a visit from my good friend, Panic, about a new job I’m starting. I reworded where things got too specific but otherwise, here it is in its raw form. Hope if you needed it, you read-ed it. . It will take time to get the…

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two and one

there is a young, young man standing at the end of the pier turmoil in his eyes worry in his hands dread heavy in his feet repeating like a broken record the sea breeze shouted at me said there isn’t anything true to believe and the sun shined and it sighed theres nothing more than…

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