When I was a girl You sat high on my shelf You were pretty, weren’t you? Though I was too small to take you down Yet I told all my friends about how Shiny you were. But when I got older And tall enough to reach you You went missing So I grew colder. ButContinue reading “bygones be bygones”
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Strategies for the Wonky Brain – Part. 2
A while back I wrote about some of the strategies I used when my wonky brain is acting up. If you’re curious about what I mean when I say “wonky brain” or are interested in additional strategies organized in no way whatsoever, check out the post: Strategies for the Wonky Brain – Part 1 So withoutContinue reading “Strategies for the Wonky Brain – Part. 2”
how you have changed me
when i knock on your mother’s door and i hear you inside yelling my name in excitement, waiting for us to play the game over and over and over where you shake my hand, i say, “oh, hello! how are you?” and you giggle endlessly because the words are nonsense to you when you beamedContinue reading “how you have changed me”
Strategies for the Wonky Brain – Part. 1
“Worrier” is a label that has fit me for as long as I can remember. As a child most of that worry involved an obsessive fear of people breaking in our house at night or me/my family getting bit by a dog (or when I was really little, of wolves who know how to useContinue reading “Strategies for the Wonky Brain – Part. 1”
chaos
Chaos pretty much terrifies me. I hate it. At least most of the time. Sometimes I thrive on it to a certain extent. Sometimes I need it in this weird way. I had a friend die when I was in high school. I was there when the accident happened. It was chaotic for a lotContinue reading “chaos”
i don’t want you to go
You startled me from my sleep last night When you spoke my name. You weren’t really there; it was all in my head. But even so I lied awake, My stomach churning at the thought, My heart wincing at the ache Of knowing full well that there will be a day When everything will beContinue reading “i don’t want you to go”
avalanche in my soul
Last night before I fell asleep, I dreamed of brightly painted toenails Barefoot in green, summer grass; A spark in my eye and dirt on my hands. I felt fresh air in my lungs, My own words on my tongue. I dreamed of running til my scrawny legs collapsed Cause every field was complete withoutContinue reading “avalanche in my soul”
10 Things I’ve Learned From My Dad
1.) Life is not about you. Sometimes there will be people you don’t like, rules you don’t agree with, and hoops you have to jump through. Sometimes the group will decide to do something you don’t enjoy. Sometimes you have to sacrifice for people you love. Sometimes you’re forced to spend time with people whoContinue reading “10 Things I’ve Learned From My Dad”
obsessed with pursuing truth.
Accidentally up in the wee hours of the morning and my brain decided to get philosophical and introspective instead of going back to sleep. And I think I just got some insight as to why I’m so obsessed with the truth. My mood, whether I’m ecstatic and alive or anxiety-ridden and depressed, whether I think IContinue reading “obsessed with pursuing truth.”
young for the first time
Lately I’ve been feeling young again. Well, not again. For the first time, really. I started taking Zoloft, which is an SSRI, about a month and a half ago. I wish I would have started taking it a heck of a long time ago. Before I started taking it, I can’t even remember the lastContinue reading “young for the first time”
