Category: INTROSPECTION AND SHIT

getting there pt 3

The last time I wrote one of these was in 2017, but based on the last paragraph of part two the story seems to have left off somewhere a few years prior to that. I know I should read the first two parts (you’re certainly more than welcome to read them but I don’t think…

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tangled

I wrote almost 2 months ago in a post called sad vaguely about entering “a season of existential/religious/spiritual searching,” and that when I was ready to I would continue those thoughts. I’m kind of ready, but only ready enough to expand just a tiny bit further–but not much, so don’t get your hopes up for…

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sad

I’m not sure I’m feeling a little sadness or am experiencing the first signs of a depressive wonky period of life (mostly my wonky brain is anxious or disorganized). I’ve had two major depression episodes in my life, one in high school and one in college, each starting about 4 years apart. I’m a year…

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stream of consciousness

I’m scared if I don’t write, don’t get some of what’s on my mind out, I’ll have another panic attack in the middle of the night and not be able to sleep. I think I’m tired from the day, think I’ve taken in too much information and my brain doesn’t have the capacity to sort…

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To My College Self

Dear College Alissa, ONE: Give others a chance to count you in before you count yourself out. Yeah, you’re quirky and awkward. There’s no real way to avoid that. But you’re also pretty funny and are genuinely interested in basically everyone. That’s cool and most people actually like you when you give them a chance.…

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how you have changed me

when i knock on your mother’s door and i hear you inside yelling my name in excitement, waiting for us to play the game over and over and over where you shake my hand, i say, “oh, hello! how are you?” and you giggle endlessly because the words are nonsense to you when you beamed…

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