confession

Shout, shout at the Moon Shout all you want to She won't grace you with a whisper She doesn't wander, she isn't like you Though there are nights I look up at the sky And I witness a sort of reply In her ancient, glassy eyes They suggest a bigger, brighter, warmer light Well, that… Continue reading confession

sad

I'm not sure I'm feeling a little sadness or am experiencing the first signs of a depressive wonky period of life (mostly my wonky brain is anxious or disorganized). I've had two major depression episodes in my life, one in high school and one in college, each starting about 4 years apart. I'm a year… Continue reading sad

would you

I've never known A faith without holes At least ones I can't account for Honestly or easily I used to be scared to admit it Afraid it'd mean I'd have to quit it But the truth is I've also never known I've never known A love that could compete with yours Never felt a freedom… Continue reading would you

getting there pt 2

Enough time has passed that anyone who had read part one of this had probably forgotten I wrote a part one to begin with. You can catch up here if you don’t mind typos I’m still too lazy to go back and change (honestly, if you do mind typos, this site is not the one… Continue reading getting there pt 2

Are they sad?

"The people in the churches - what are they thinking about it? Are they sad? Do they know?" My friend and co-worker, Yusuf, posed these questions this afternoon when I and another friend and co-worker, Nicole, met Yusuf to help him with a project for his English class he attends in the evening. "Well..." Nicole… Continue reading Are they sad?

getting there pt 1

I think I'm writing this for two groups of people. The first group is only compromised of myself. I think I need to be reminded of how I've changed, how far I've come. The other group is those people I'll never get a chance to sit down and share life stories with, either because we'll… Continue reading getting there pt 1

two paragraphs of me saying what i REALLY wanted to say in the middle of a bunch of paragraphs of me talking AROUND what i really wanted to say

When I think or I type these types of things I usually sandwich them between "I know this isn't true, but..." and all the examples or points that contradict what I'm feeling. But I'm not going to do that today. It's incredibly hard not to, but for some reason it seems important this time. I… Continue reading two paragraphs of me saying what i REALLY wanted to say in the middle of a bunch of paragraphs of me talking AROUND what i really wanted to say

bygones be bygones

When I was a girl You sat high on my shelf You were pretty, weren't you? Though I was too small to take you down But I told all my friends about how Shiny you were. But when I got older And tall enough to reach you You went missing So I grew colder. But… Continue reading bygones be bygones

back to the path

Jesus said to love your neighbor as yourself and that's not always going to be 100% comfortable, safe, easy, or risk-free. Actually, it rarely will be. Maybe that's why He said to count the cost before you decide to follow Him. *** Sometimes I get kind of tired and bored in my faith, to be… Continue reading back to the path

Don’t be lazy. Seek truth and teach your kids to do the same.

I think aside from giving out ridiculous amounts of love unconditionally, the greatest thing grown-ups can do for kids is teach them how to think critically and seek the truth in all things. We spend so much time parroting what our parents or religious (or anti-religious) leaders or political party asserts without ever taking the… Continue reading Don’t be lazy. Seek truth and teach your kids to do the same.