sad

I'm not sure I'm feeling a little sadness or am experiencing the first signs of a depressive wonky period of life (mostly my wonky brain is anxious or disorganized). I've had two major depression episodes in my life, one in high school and one in college, each starting about 4 years apart. I'm a year… Continue reading sad

would you

I've never known A faith without holes At least ones I can't account for Honestly or easily I used to be scared to admit it Afraid it'd mean I'd have to quit it But the truth is I've also never known I've never known A love that could compete with yours Never felt a freedom… Continue reading would you

getting there pt 1

I think I'm writing this for two groups of people. The first group is only compromised of myself. I think I need to be reminded of how I've changed, how far I've come. The other group is those people I'll never get a chance to sit down and share life stories with, either because we'll… Continue reading getting there pt 1

bygones be bygones

When I was a girl You sat high on my shelf You were pretty, weren't you? Though I was too small to take you down But I told all my friends about how Shiny you were. But when I got older And tall enough to reach you You went missing So I grew colder. But… Continue reading bygones be bygones

What love is and isn’t. Always.

"Love is patient, love is kind. ...It is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, not easily angered,.." Love is these things even when that person is part of a different political party than you, even when this person is a different race. Even when that person is a different religion--including… Continue reading What love is and isn’t. Always.

back to the path

Jesus said to love your neighbor as yourself and that's not always going to be 100% comfortable, safe, easy, or risk-free. Actually, it rarely will be. Maybe that's why He said to count the cost before you decide to follow Him. *** Sometimes I get kind of tired and bored in my faith, to be… Continue reading back to the path

suffering

I know the Sunday school answer for why bad things happen like the back of my hand, that our Creator gives us free will so that we can choose to love him and that a consequence of that free will is that we can choose to do what is evil. And God doesn't reach down… Continue reading suffering

things my mom said at just the right time.

I honestly don't know what I would do without my mom flawlessly saying exactly what I need to hear the moment I need to hear it. Thursday was one of those times. We talked on the phone for almost two hours, so there's no way I could write down all the wonderful things she shared… Continue reading things my mom said at just the right time.

I don’t hate going to church because of hypocrites. I hate going to church because I’m not allowed to think critically. About anything.

If you want to know the truth, after I met Jesus at 16, I hated going to church even more than I had before then. I hear a lot about people not wanting to go to church because they were hurt by people in the church, because the congregants or leaders were hypocritical, etc. That… Continue reading I don’t hate going to church because of hypocrites. I hate going to church because I’m not allowed to think critically. About anything.

Dear Christians who have their panties in a wad about the Duck Dynasty controversy…

Dear Christians who have their panties in a wad about the Duck Dynasty controversy: Feel free to take offense and comfort yourself in the fact that I too am a horrible person that does very little to change the world around me, but... SHUT UP. Listen, if your interpretation of scripture leads you to believe… Continue reading Dear Christians who have their panties in a wad about the Duck Dynasty controversy…