would you

I've never known A faith without holes At least ones I can't account for Honestly or easily I used to be scared to admit it Afraid it'd mean I'd have to quit it But the truth is I've also never known I've never known A love that could compete with yours Never felt a freedom… Continue reading would you

Are they sad?

"The people in the churches - what are they thinking about it? Are they sad? Do they know?" My friend and co-worker, Yusuf, posed these questions this afternoon when I and another friend and co-worker, Nicole, met Yusuf to help him with a project for his English class he attends in the evening. "Well..." Nicole… Continue reading Are they sad?

getting there pt 1

I think I'm writing this for two groups of people. The first group is only compromised of myself. I think I need to be reminded of how I've changed, how far I've come. The other group is those people I'll never get a chance to sit down and share life stories with, either because we'll… Continue reading getting there pt 1

bygones be bygones

When I was a girl You sat high on my shelf You were pretty, weren't you? Though I was too small to take you down But I told all my friends about how Shiny you were. But when I got older And tall enough to reach you You went missing So I grew colder. But… Continue reading bygones be bygones

What love is and isn’t. Always.

"Love is patient, love is kind. ...It is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, not easily angered,.." Love is these things even when that person is part of a different political party than you, even when this person is a different race. Even when that person is a different religion--including… Continue reading What love is and isn’t. Always.

Strategies for the Wonky Brain – Part. 1

"Worrier" is a label that has fit me for as long as I can remember. As a child most of that worry involved an obsessive fear of people breaking in our house at night or me/my family getting bit by a dog (or when I was really little, of wolves who know how to use… Continue reading Strategies for the Wonky Brain – Part. 1

back to the path

Jesus said to love your neighbor as yourself and that's not always going to be 100% comfortable, safe, easy, or risk-free. Actually, it rarely will be. Maybe that's why He said to count the cost before you decide to follow Him. *** Sometimes I get kind of tired and bored in my faith, to be… Continue reading back to the path


I know the Sunday school answer for why bad things happen like the back of my hand, that our Creator gives us free will so that we can choose to love him and that a consequence of that free will is that we can choose to do what is evil. And God doesn't reach down… Continue reading suffering

love & fear

I'm surprised by the fear I'm finding I have when it comes to relationships. Not surprised that I have fear (I take medicine for anxiety, okay; fear isn't new to me), but surprised at what that fear has turned out to be. It's not the fear I was trained into having from the time I was… Continue reading love & fear

things my mom said at just the right time.

I honestly don't know what I would do without my mom flawlessly saying exactly what I need to hear the moment I need to hear it. Thursday was one of those times. We talked on the phone for almost two hours, so there's no way I could write down all the wonderful things she shared… Continue reading things my mom said at just the right time.