joy and grief and also some rambling about adoption in the middle

I don't really feel like writing, but I decided to make myself because I think it's what I need. Today is the first day in a while I didn't wait until the last possible second to wake up. I've been really tired. I'd been letting myself just sleep, because sometimes your body is fighting off… Continue reading joy and grief and also some rambling about adoption in the middle

on happiness

My mom sent me a quote this morning as I sat in a coffee shop journaling. "Don't be pushed by your problems. Be led by your dreams." - Ralph Waldo Emerson It's not important I'm in a coffee shop (btw here's how I feel about coffee) but I only mention it so I can brag… Continue reading on happiness

stream of consciousness – gut feelings & joy

My husband, Evan, and I kind of take turns being the Chatty Chad/Cathy in our relationship. Evan can talk at length on one very focused subject. This is why, for example, despite having never even seen one second of it, I feel like I've watched the entire series Dexter. And why I've experienced an extremely detailed… Continue reading stream of consciousness – gut feelings & joy

the great paradox of my depression

The great paradox of my depression is that, while it takes me to some of the darkest places and deepest pain I have experienced, it also brings me some of the greatest joy and the most intense moments of clarity concerning God that I have ever known. The other day was rough. I wanted to… Continue reading the great paradox of my depression